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Monday, December 26, 2005

He's on a warpath. 

 

Now he's coming for me.

Don't let your past mistakes ruin today.


I hope you never lose your sense of wonder

You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger

May you never take one single breath for granted

God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed

I hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean

Whenever one door closes I hope one more closes

Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit out or dance

I hope you dance... I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance

Never settle for the path of least resistance

Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin'

Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin'

Don't let some hell-bent heart leave you bitter

When you come close to sellin' out reconsider

Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

I hope you dance... I hope you dance

Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along

Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder

where those years have gone

I hope you dance... I hope you dance

I hope you dance.

 

This is from me to you

This is the truth

 

How many times have

my wishes

and my dreams

and my prayers

for you

hidden beneath my breath?

 

How many times have I looked at you,

heart in my throat,

hands in my pockets,

a smile on my face,

just wanting to say...

 

I HOPE YOU NEVER LOSE YOUR SENSE OF WONDER

 

What is hope?

 

What is hope?

To want? To desire?

To expect that what's envisioned

may indeed happen?

YES to all of the above

Is hope a gut feeling that it's

worth holding out

and hanging on for just a little longer?

ABSOLUTELY

Is hope the core of the human condition?

CERTAINLY

Can you have hope without

faith and humility and wonder?

THAT'S TOUGH

Just the thought that there's something bigger,

something truer, something totally surprising

out there waiting for us is...

priceless

 

What would you be without hope

growing deep in your bones,

thriving in every inch of you?

NOTHING

 

What does it take to hope?

EVERYTHING

 

Hope takes never ceasing

to be amazed...

 

Wearing

your soul on your sleeve...

 

Holding

your breath, waiting to hear

"I love you too..."

 

Believing

that tomorrow could be better than today...

that you'll get a second chance...

that you'll make a difference...

that you matter

 

You get your fill to eat

but always keep that hunger

 

Hunger is the wanting:

  to see more

  to feel more

  to touch more

  to crave, desire, search out, find, hold more

And sometimes hunger hurts more

But go on, go west, young man, young woman

Plow the land,

Plant the seeds,

grow food for the whole wide world

 

MAY YOU NEVER TAKE ONE SINGLE BREATH FOR GRANTED

 

So breath out and breath in

[and soak it all up]

 

GOD FORBID LOVE EVER LEAVE YOU EMPTY-HANDED

 

But if it does,

may it leave you patient and stronger,

willing and wiser, tender and tougher

 

I HOPE YOU STILL FEEL small WHEN YOU STAND BESIDE THE OCEAN

 

If you're ever lying on the beach with

80 billion grains of sand beneath you,

700 thousand ocean waves before you,

60 million stars stretched out above you,

and you're still not at all impressed,

I want you to think about this:

The light you see reflecting from the stars is over one million years old.

WOW

But then, just before you start to feel like a mere blip

in the gigantic scheme of things, please remember this:

Yes, you are small, but you're also irreplaceable

and invaluable

and miraculous

Those stars don't have anything on you

 

WHENEVER ONE DOOR CLOSES I HOPE ONE MORE OPENS

 

DOORS

Holes in walls that offer us a way out or a way in

Just putting your hand on the knob and seeing if it turns can

make you weak in the knees

 

What if it's locked?

What if it's unlocked?

What if no one answers?

What if someone does?

 

What if the hinges creak and the heavy wood swings

open

and you're suddenly standing at the threshold

of a brand new tomorrow?

What if your horizon is nothing but

blue clear skies?

What if it's a raging storm?

What if?

What if?

                      What if?

 

PROMISE ME THAT YOU'LL GIVE FAITH A FIGHTING CHANCE

 

A PROMISE IS ALL ABOUT FAITH

A PROMISE IS ONLY AS STRONG

as your own faith in your own self,

in your own god

So when you swear,

in light of your strengths and in spite

of your weaknesses,

to struggle and follow through,

you

are doing a beautiful thing

 

AND WHEN YOU GET THE CHOICE TO SIT IT OUT OR DANCE

I HOPE YOU DANCE

 

Let the music move you,

Let the moment take your hand,

Let it lead you out into

the middle of the dance floor and

embrace you

Dive off the high board,

Ride with the top down,

Thrive like a wildflower,

and sing

[who care what you sound like]

with a voice all your own

 

I HOPE YOU NEVER FEAR THOSE MOUNTAINS IN THE DISTANCE

 

               LIFE

               Chapter 23

            Mountains and Oceans

  Seems like there's always another of one or the other...

 

It's crossing your fingers when the map doesn't make sense, when the compass doesn't know truly north from truly lost; and it's up to you-you and your gut and your mettle, and your level of resilience, and your wealth of wisdom-to persevere.  To get to the other side.

               To hope.

 

NEVER SETTLE FOR THE PATH OF LEAST RESISTANCE

[That's too easy.  What follows is too interesting]

 

LIVING MIGHT MEAN TAKING CHANCES, BUT THEY'RE WORTH TAKING

 

Ask Eve.

Evolve.

Take a chance, take a ticket,

take a fast train to the coast.

No guts, no glory.

 

  chance (n.): a coin with two sides that one tosses

               into the air as many times as one wants.

               The odds remain the same.

 

It's risky breathing, let alone needing,

trusting, reaching out.  Life is the leap of faith,

the bold declaration of

 

Hope.

 

[attention: this is really big stuff, this is the crux of the whole adventure]

LOVING MIGHT BE A MISTAKE, BUT IT'S WORTH MAKING

 

Love, love, love

You have to love,

And if you don't get love right,

You have to move on

And forgive.

And then you have to remember

That you're forgiven,

Or else you can't move on.

And if you don't move on,

You'll surely end up....

Bitter [see next]

 

DON'T LET SOME HELL-BENT HEART LEAVE YOU BITTER

[and don't say I didn't warn you]

 

There are too many people too angry

at a world that isn't

in the least bit angry at them.

 

WHEN YOU COME CLOSE TO SELLING OUT, RECONSIDER

 

YOU

[a haiku]

 

One worth so much

To me, to us, to life as such.

A bowl of cherries.

 

GIVE THE HEAVENS ABOVE MORE THAN JUST A PASSING GLANCE

 

 Heaven (n.): (1) a place somehow high above the clouds,

yet deep inside your soul; (2) a place of complete peace,

  of total and utter happiness; (3) a place that is greater than

          the sum of everything you will ever be, or could imagine to be;

  (4) a place we all want to get to, but just not yet...

 

No, not yet.

 

AND WHEN YOU GET THE CHOICE TO SIT IT OUT OR DANCE

[as you now well know]

I HOPE YOU DANCE

 

I HOPE YOU DANCE BECAUSE

Time

Time is a wheel

Time is a wheel in constant motion

always

rolling us along

Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder...

 

WHERE

THEIR

YEARS

HAVE

GONE

 

AH, YOUTH

 

Ah, youth... new skin, wide smiles

clear eyes, the future so bright.

If only we could bottle it up, sip it now and

again, and stay forever twenty-one,

forever ten, forever five.

 

I liked being five.

 

But I'd also like to think that time and age are like cousins-

they're relative.

Who said you have to go by actual miles?

If you didn't know how old you were, how old would you be?

[me, I'm sticking with five.]

 

I'll even argue that you can bottle youth.

What you store is all up to you.

[I suggest your heart]

If you can figure out a way to keep

the energy and gumption and fire alive,

you'll always stay young.

And where there's youth, there's hope...

where there's hope, there's wonder...

where there's wonder, there's faith...

where there's faith, there's chance...

where there's chance, there's love...

where there's love, there's music...

and dancing.

 

So in my heart of hearts

 

I HOPE YOU DANCE

I REALLY HOPE YOU DANCE

Amen

 

WAIT...

Promise me one more thing:

 

If tomorrow you wake up feeling

unoriginal

or

frail-hearted

or

faithless

or

tired of this world

 

please

 

pick up this book and start back at page

ONE.

 

[or just call me]

 

No, it's not the end

It's the beginning.

 


Sunday, May 22, 2005

R.I.P.

Such an amazing man.

He was my mentor, my friend, my brother.

Again, I apologize for not being there to usher you out. And I wish you could be here to send me on my way... you're the only one I would have wanted there.

Goodnight, and goodbye.


Tuesday, March 29, 2005

F:"You don't care how I feel!"

M:"Well, I think that's a pretty hurtful thing to say."

F:"I don't care!"


Thursday, March 24, 2005

"It's been a long day, living with this
It's been a long time since I've felt so sick
I took a long walk straight back home
I could have walked back to San Fransisco
I used to long for time alone
I used to long for a place of my own
And I'm losing faith in everything
I'm lost, so lost, I'm lost at sea you see

I used to long for broken bones
I used to long for a casket to call my own
I never had a problem facing fear
But I'm done, over and done my dear

Oh, mercy me
God bless catastrophe
There's no way in hell
We'll ever live to see through this, so
Drive yourself insane tonight
It's not that far away, and I just filled up your tank earlier today

It's been a long day living with this
It's been a long time since I felt so sick
I took a long walk straight back home
I could've walked back to Chicago
I used to long for time alone
I used to long for a place of my own
And I've lost faith in everything
I'm lost, so lost, I'm lost without you

Oh, mercy me
God bless catastrophe
There's no way in hell
We'll ever live to see through this, so
Drive yourself insane tonight
It's not that far away, and I just filled up your tank earlier today."



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